Today, guys, I want to introduce you to Sharon Johnson. A wonderful author that I've had the pleasure of meeting through the Christian Indie Novelists group we both belong to. Today, she's sharing her story. Leave some comments, make her feel welcome! And if all goes well, she will be a contributing author to the blog!
Thank you for having me today. I am thrilled to be here.
Life is all about decisions. We make decisions all day long. Some are good decisions. Some are bad decisions. Seems like all my life I have been making bad decisions. I have always heard; listen to that voice deep inside. You know that feeling you get, when you know you are making a terrible decision. I always ignored that feeling. Not sure why. Maybe fear.
I drank to make me feel better about the terrible decisions I made. I starved myself because I didn’t think I was good enough. If I wasn’t drinking, I was starving myself. I was a mess. I believed in GOD. I prayed. Why was my life such a mess?
One time in my life, I found myself alone. I was a divorced woman. Divorce is a sin. I knew I was going to Hell, so it didn’t matter what I did. I moved in with a man and I knew it was wrong. There was that feeling deep in my stomach, telling me I was making the wrong decision. I couldn’t live on my own. Who was going to take care of me? Three years in a abusive relationship. I thought I deserved it. I am a divorced woman going to Hell, so nothing really mattered.
I finally got out of the abusive relationship, thanks to GOD, though at the time I didn’t give GOD any credit. I was alone. I had nothing. I was crying one night, till I could cry no more. I looked up and screamed. “Just tell me what to do! I don’t know what you want from me. Tell me what to do!”
I fell asleep on the floor, where I was crying. I woke up and the answer was crystal clear. GOD answered my prayer. He didn’t yell the answer. I had peace inside of me. I knew what I had to do. GOD told me to move and stand on my own.
Did GOD know who he was talking to? I was 45 years old and never lived alone. I needed someone to take care of me.
The first time in my life I was going to listen to that voice/feeling deep inside of me. Was I scared? Yes. Did I think I could do it? Nope. For the first time I was trusting GOD. I stopped drinking. Best thing I ever did. As the years past I discovered that GOD loves me, even when I ignored him. I still make wrong decisions, but whenever I make a decision and get that feeling deep inside, I listen to that feeling. Sometimes I don’t agree with that feeling. In the end that feeling is guiding me in the right direction.
I do hope that no matter what is going on in your life, you will listen to that voice deep inside of you. The voice will not be loud, it will be soft, loving and will nudge you in the right direction. It is your decision; GOD gave us all free will. I can tell you that my life is so much better since I am listening to GOD.
My Bible—My God is my testimony to GOD. I let Satan throw me into a pit. GOD pulled me out of the pit. God was with me, even when I ignored him. GOD is always with us. We just have to listen and He will guide us into making the right decisions.
You are never alone. GOD loves you.
Jeremiah 29:11For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord. Plans to prosper you and not to harm you. Plans to give you hope and a future.